I don't know how much time is considered 'normal' to grieve, or when you will be begin to feel whole again. I think that what it is very personal.
I can only imagine what you are going through, and how you are feeling.
I do think (from reading your previous posts) that Jimmy would want you to try to be happy again. I'm not sure how you do that, but maybe it will sneak up on you, bit by bit. One day, you will be able to smile without the tears when you think of him.
I'm glad that you do have family and friends, and your pets, to be with you during this time.
Can I ask, are you seeing a counsellor, or a thereapist? It might help to have a sounding board. When my Dad passed away, his wife was on meds for about 9 months, just to help her along. It's not for everyone, but it does work for some.
I wish you the best. Please know that I am thinking about you.
Hugs.

thank you for adding me. i'm going to return the kindness.

i'm glad to see you back. i've thought of you and wondered how you were doing. you're a very strong person to live through such a tremendous loss.

i would really like to be friends.

i looked at your profile again and was touched by this

"The 5 Tenants of Submission

my place is to honor my Dominant.
my duty is to obey my Dominant.
my purpose is to serve my Dominant
my pleasure is to accept guidance and discipline from my Dominant.
my joy is to please my Dominant"

perhaps these 5 "rules" are where you will begin to heal.
**to honor Him, remember Him and everything good that you gave to each other.
**to obey Him think of what He would want you to do now and then... do it.
**to serve Him is to continue to live as He would have you live
**find pleasure in your acceptance of His guidance and refer to those memories of His instructions often. His "words" will continue to teach you the road which He would have you follow
**find joy in your reflection and memories

will this be easy? no, i don't think it will be. i do, however, believe that He would want you to continue to live life by His rules and instructions.
it will take time to heal, but i think if you keep the memory of His instructions, control and love in your thoughts, you will be guided and you will find your way to be happy again...
HUGS

6 months is nothing. It takes often times more than a year. And it's not that you'll be over it, it's just that it will become more bearable.

You have my sympathies.

This entry is a little dated, I realize you may not read this comment. You've been reading me for some time I suppose, but how is it I've never read your journal before? I'm a little floored right now, it's after midnight and it's now been a month for me. I've added you to my friends list.

LM